As I hit “Publish” last night, it started snowing again and The Husband was ecstatic. When it comes to snow, he’s like a big kid and it lightens my mood instantaneously, even if I pretend to be all grouchy and snow hating. He calls me a “Snow Bitch”.
Today I went back to bed when The Husband went to work. It was cold outside and even though I knew I had work to do around the house, a few more hours under the covers just felt like the right thing to do. If anyone asks, I’m blaming the dog. He knows where to hang out where it’s always warm and cozy.
The prospectus came from Open University last night. I only have a few more days to apply for my Openings course and I’m nervous that I’m not going to be able to hold up my end of the bargain when it comes to paying for it.
We had a deal, The Husband and I – he would pay, I would help more around the house. Apparently I’m doing a so-so job with it at present. I’ve never been one for housework, hence why we have a cleaner come weekly and I have no idea how to go about keeping up my part in the bargain.
I guess I just have to keep trying. I wonder what my therapist will think about swapping household chores for one payment of £290?
Poor old froggy lives outside, in front of the Summer House. It sounds ironic having a Summer House in the UK, but we do actually get more than a few sunny days here in London, so he doesn’t suffer too badly after the end of February. However, this week, he made up for eight months of half decent weather, where a jumper is only mandatory wearing 90% of the time by sitting outside in the sub-zero temperatures and even getting a dusting of snow.
I don’t like snow. I used to, when I first moved over. It was the excitement factor of having it in your own backyard and getting to see snow fall whilst you were all warm and cozy in an office or sitting on the lounge. Those days were pretty exhilarating. A few days after my first snow fall, I discovered what it’s like in London when the snow starts to melt (or turn into frozen grey slush). It’s not fun, it’s cold and it’s usually wet too.
So snow, you can stay in the sky or hang about in posh French and Swiss ski resorts where people are a lot more equipped to deal with you and I promise not to moan about the cold. Deal?
It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I didn’t mean to leave you so long or make you feel deserted. It just happened. I apologise.
Last time I wrote, I was in Australia. I was dreading leaving one home but excited to get back to reality. Now I’m not so excited. The job scene isn’t hot (long story short: worst interview ever), it’s so cold I feel like I live in an Igloo, I miss my family like crazy and I finally realized that even though I love London, my real home is in Australia, with my family.
There have been tears almost every day. There have been stupid arguments and decisions to plan ahead but I just don’t want to. I want to go home right now. I know it’s selfish to expect him to pick up his happy life and everything that he holds dear to him but I know that those three months of happiness, comfort and being able to spend time with the ones I love were the reason why I didn’t need to take my antidepressants and the moment I felt I had finally kicked that black dog right out of the door.
Decisions have to be made. It’s just a shame they are the ridiculously hard ones.
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Ok, so it’s been a crap week and a bit for me since I last posted. I didn’t mean to leave it for so long but then there was always an excuse not to blog. Not to worry though, I’m back with a great fun & easy recipe that you can make for Christmas (or any occasion, really…) Read More
I have been watching far too much television in the last two weeks. It all started out when I downloaded the first season of Ally McBeal. I had been talking about it with the Husband – how we were both fans as teenagers and we had wanted to watch it again. I’d been having loads of trouble getting off to sleep at night so I started watching episode after episode of Ally.
Then, I remembered I was missing out on Glee – Channel 10 were too far in front for me to understand what the heck was going on, so I grabbed that too. After that, I stumbled in to Danielle’s post about what she’s been watching on TV over at Hello Owl and a true TV addiction was formed.
I’m on “Happy Pills” and they make me function like a normal woman and not like a banshee from outer space. It’s really important that I remember to take them every day, because the banshee likes to turn up at random moments and usually, it’s around the time I’ve got important things to do, like call my husband or attend job interviews. Thankfully for prospective interviewers, the banshee hasn’t actually turned up at an interview, she just likes to sit in my head and make me doubt my self-worth whilst I’m on my way to the building, because she’s such a nice banshee like that.
On Tuesday last week, I lost my packet. I thought I had left it in the fruit bowl, but my Mum had moved them into my handbag because she didn’t want to confuse them with her tablets (which are not happy ones – she is already happy enough). So as they say, out of sight, out of mind – I just plain forgot to take my tablets for three whole days.
I never like to admit that my husband is right – but I have to admit, my husband is right. When I don’t take my tablets, bad things happen. Like how I couldn’t sleep properly for two days and even now I still can’t get to sleep until late in the night. Getting the shakes is fun too, especially when they’re combined with that nervous sensation in my stomach that signals an imminent anxiety attack.
So I’ve re-set the diary reminder in my phone for 9am every day and I’m not ignoring it this time – my pills are on my side table and there’s a bottle of water there too. No excuses!